It's been quite some time since I last posted something on this blog, maybe two years or so. Since then, I've deleted all my former posts and not really felt I had time for a blog, but today I have an important message to everyone, and my blog could be one step in the direction of people getting aquainted with what I am about to share. I write in english this time only because it makes me feel more comfortable.
Soon to be two years ago, I met my boyfriend. We've been together since then, but only yesterday did he share something from the beginning of our relationship that really got me thinking.
Now, I'm the kind of person who's quantity of eating varies alot over different parts of the year. So, some months I have no trouble eating everything in the fridge, and always find myself being hungry, but in other months i gan barely finish an apple. I don't know the reason behind this, but it's just the way it is. So when I met my boyfriend I'd just started eating less again, mainly because of the fact that i wasn't hungry, but also because I just met him, i didn't want him to think of me as a food-monster. Problem was, I wanted to look perfect for him, so when i got hungry again, i still ate quite little. On top of that, I started working out 4-5 times a week because I wanted to loose weight.
Soon i was really close to my goal, but my body was so starved, I had to start eating again,
Months went on, an I slowly started eating a good amount of food again, and satisfying my body, but I didn't satisfy me, since I felt fat again, eventhough I still worked out, and hadn't gained more than a kilo or so. But I ignored it, since I wanted my body to be happy.
Yesterday, my boyfriend told me that by the point i'd almost reached my goal, he's mother had asked if i was suffering from an eating disorder.
This is what got me thinking. Isn't it crazy that girls are so obsessed with having a perfectly skinny body, that we forget how dangerous it can be. I wasn't suffering from any eating disorder, i was suffering from my own stupididy. Of coure we all should work out and eat healthy if we want to, but aiming to have the perfect toned instagram-body just isn't healthy. Looking back at when i was that skinny, I remember how the slightest bump towards my hips made them hurt excessively, and my hipbones were so visible. You could see them through my jeans.
My only goal when writing this is letting girls know that you are absolutely georgeous no matter what. If you are going to work out or loose what or whatever, LISTEN TO YOUR BODY! It's the only bosy you are ever going to get, so love it.
Kisses!
